What is the true nature of the relationship between the guitarist and bassist of the world-famous rock band, Caffeine Daydreams?

Kai

I should be happy.
My childhood best friend and I are living our wildest dream—making music and touring the world as famous rock stars. I’ve got everything I could wish for.
Except him.
I’ll never have Silas. Not the way I want.
Our onstage behaviour gives fans a lot to speculate over, but it’s only an act.
The truth is, I die inside every time we touch. It might be pretend for Silas, but for me, it’s a constant reminder that I can’t have him the way I truly desire.
Then, a moment onstage leads me to a breaking point, and I can’t bear the heartache any longer.
I need to find a way to only see Silas as a friend before I lose our friendship, and him, forever.

Silas

My life is split into two chapters.
Before Kai and After Kai.
My childhood was a nightmare. A darkness I carried alone. But everything became brighter when I met Kai. He took me into his life, his family, his home.
Kai is more than my best friend. He’s my everything.
Some people think our relationship is odd…that it’s unusual for two friends to be as close as we are.
But everything about us makes sense.
At least, that’s what I believed.
When an onstage moment shines a light on the cracks in our foundation, my eyes are opened to a truth that’s been right in front of me the entire time.
A truth I want to explore.
But it’s too late. Just when I’m ready for more, Kai’s moving on.
One thing’s for sure; I’m not giving up.
No matter the risks.

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~ * ~ Ky‘s Review ~ * ~

Silas and Kai were childhood friends. They met when Silas defended Kai against some bullies and have been best friends ever since. Neither comes from money but their home lives were very different.

Silas had an abusive father who didn’t care about him, while Kai had a loving family with two parents who loved and supported him and three younger siblings.

While they were still in school Silas spent most of his time at Kai’s house, both because it felt more like home and in an effort to avoid his father. A few years after they became friends, music caught their interest and eventually, they formed a band.

The book begins with some chapters set in their childhood and then fast forwards to their thirties when they’re famous and touring the world.

Kai realized early on that he was gay, in part thanks to his feelings for Silas, which he kept hidden in an effort to save their friendship and avoid any awkwardness. Silas, being the most oblivious character ever, never had any idea about Kai’s feelings, even though Kai was practically singing them to him at every concert.

As their latest tour was heading toward its end, Kai decided to do something about his unrequited feelings and since he believed that space was what he needed, he decided to bail for a few months. That coincidentally came right after Silas took their usual onstage teasing and playing a little too far. But what made Kai believe that there was no hope between them and lit a fire in Silas, who began seeing what was in front of him all these years.

There are a lot of misunderstandings and many issues could have been easily resolved if only the characters weren’t so opposed to having an honest conversation. But I liked the story and didn’t care much about all that, which means it wasn’t overly done.

Their bandmates were nice additions and I look forward to Arlo’s story with his bodyguard. There were some hints about a past between them but it wasn’t nearly enough to satisfy my curiosity, so I hope there will be some chapters set before the events of Green Light.

Silas and Kai were absolutely adorable together, I love friends-to-lovers stories and here there was the added bonus of jealousy as Kai decided to bring a fake boyfriend with him when he came back. I think the boyfriend will be getting a story of his own if the little information we got about him is anything to go by.

So, I look forward to more books from this universe and to future cameos of the previous MCs.

~ * ~ Tracy‘s Review ~ * ~

4 Stars

Boy, was this an angst-filled read. It seemed the majority of the story was filled with Kai and Silas pining for one another. My heart broke for them both at different times throughout the story, but once they finally pulled their heads out of their asses, they fit together perfectly.

I loved that the author told the story in parts. While most of the story takes place in the present, their story starts in their young teens and works its way forward over a few chapters to the present. As someone who despises flashbacks, I really appreciated this format.

Silas and Kai were both likable and they had amazing chemistry. I loved getting to catch up with Ollie and Luca, and I’m looking forward to getting to Arlo’s story. This was an enjoyable, well-written, and recommendable read!

* Copy provided to Bayou Book Junkie for my reading pleasure, a review wasn’t a requirement. *

Lark lives with her family in southern England. An obsessive romance fan, she loves nothing more than a Happily Ever After – especially if there’s a good plot and a hefty amount of spice along the way. When she’s not reading or writing, she can be found hiding from adult life in escape rooms, travel and the MCU. As a Bi woman with OCD, Lark is a fervent supporter of the LGBTQIA+ community and an advocate for mental health awareness and support.